Monday, September 24, 2007

More Stuff to be Happy About. (I'm trying)

Now it is, in fact, Monday. And we all know Mondays suck. I woke up to the bitter sound of my alarm this morning and the day went downhill from there.

But there were a couple of shining moments....
1. The "check engine" light that has been on in my car for the last 3 days went off.
(Does that mean I should still get the engine checked?)
2. I got a funny drag-queen joke forwarded from Chris.
3. I saw a Cadillac commercial tonight in which that red-headed chic from Greys Anatomy quotes the wittiest tag line I have heard in a while..."The real questions is, when you turn your car on, does it return the favor?"
4. The new show "The Big Bang Theory" on CBS was freakin hilarious.
5. "The Kingdom" comes out in theaters in 4 days. It has Jennifer Garner, Jeremy Piven AND Tim McGraw in it and that's got HOT written all over it.

and yep, that is about the extent of the great things that happened today.

*Note- I am fully aware that my latest blogs have made me sound like a don't-wanna-work, boozing-to-make-me-feel-better, emotional ranting, gold-digging bitch.
and yes. I'm ok with that.

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Monday Eve

I'm in a better mood today. All it took was a little weekend retail therapy with my Mom, Mexican food, a bottle of Coppola chardonnay Friday night and presently, the Chicago Bears.

Ah yes...the simple things in life.

Tomorrow is Monday. Why are Mondays so heinous? Do we hate the beginning of the work week? Do we just hate work? For me, I think I just hate getting up after functioning apart from an alarm clock for 2 days.

But, oh well. We have to work, right? At least some of us do. That is, until I find a rich husband. I'm still holding out hope. For now, I guess I'll set my alarm and carry my happy ass back to work tomorrow.

I think I have another bottle of chardonnay.

Wednesday, September 19, 2007


I turned 32 a few days ago. So far, I must say, 32 sucks.

ok, ok, I'll try to avoid a bitch session about how old I feel and how I literally sense my ovaries drying up as I type, but oh well. So yeah, I just said it anyway.

Seriously, I am feeling a bit tired right now. Physically, emotionally and spiritually.
Exhausted really. (Strange how I just got back from vacation?!) That explains the physical part.
Spiritually, I feel like I am doggie paddling, at best.

I guess, mostly, it's emotional. My heart is just tired. I am tired of feeling.

As a child of the 80's, I have fond memories of Pat Benatar. Well, Pat, if "love is a battlefield," the past year was my emotional Normandy.
The spring of last year, I had renewed hope. A lot happened. I wasn't looking for any of it. It all dropped in my lap actually. Over the course of a year, God opened up to me a few new relationships. They just ended up being hard and painful and left me freakin wounded. I felt like He set me up. It seemed He went to a lot of trouble just to disappoint me.

It's all still raging. But I quit.

Life is hard. People are hard. Loving is hard. but right.
And I guess I can't regret doing it.

Ugghhh. This blog is starting to sound stupid. and sappy.
and there's a lot of run-on sentences.

I don't care. I'm 32. I'll write whatever the hell I want on my own blog!
(oh, by the way, did I mention I am totally pms-ing?)

But don't you dare start diminishing my feelings because I mentioned pms. So help me, I will come through this computer and beat you with your mouse.

Oh. Sorry.

You can stop reading now if you want.

But actually, I think I will try my hand at redeeming this post and instead of continuing to rant, give you yet another list...


Here is my list of 32 things I am thankful for at this precise moment-

1. Patty Griffin's song "Rain." It is on repeat right now and it's as comforting as a cool blanket.
2. My new purse
3. I don't have to be at work until 7:45 tomorrow
4. The pilot episode of Bionic Woman comes on in like 9 days
5. The down comforter in this Marriott is sweet
6. Pima cotton t-shirts
7. Sephora (which I strolled around in again today)
8. People who don't expect me to always call them
9. Friday is payday
10. I'm going home then
11. I still have Sadie
12. Harry Potter
13. post-it notes
14. martinis
15. text messages
16. hot water
17. I have strong fingernails
18. Knowing people have probably stopped reading this
19. I don't have any photographs to get to anyone right now
20. The dentist (I broke a tooth yesterday and I should probably go get that looked at.)
21. Insurance
22. Advil

ok, screw this. Since I feel 22 anyway, I am stopping there.

I am going to bed.

Oh, that's 23.